Well, it’s been more than 8 months since I’ve posted here and I haven’t gotten any thinner. Oh, I’ve lost 5-7 pounds here or there, but nothing close to my goal of 60 (I think more like 50 now actually). I’m 190 pounds of fat unhappiness. Now more than ever I know it’s time for extreme measures. Weight loss at all costs. I’m not a 20 something young girl. I’m a grown woman. I know the health risks, but I also know the pain and loneliness of living in such a shallow society and being overweight. You become another face in the crowd. Do I need to be thought of as beautiful in order to love myself. Yes. Is that shallow. Yes. Do I give a F***? Not today. I don’t CARE any more. All I care about is losing at least 50 pounds and keeping it off. Period
August 21, 2008...10:56 pm
December was a long time ago
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August 22, 2008 at 1:54 am
Hi, I found your website by chance while doing a Google search. I’m very sorry for your struggles because I went through them for years myself. In September ‘07 I realized I had to make a change because I was depressed, lonely and unhappy. At the time I weighed in at 205 pounds (I’m 5′6″).
Today I’m 150. I went from a size 16 (pushing 18) to a 10 almost an 8.
I lost the weight by completely changing my diet, learning what foods are good for me and which aren’t, I joined a gym (went three times a week – when I started on the treadmill I could barely do 15 minutes without feeling like I was going to die!) and did daily affirmations every day along with visualizations of myself thin and gorgeous. It may sound hokey but it worked for me…
These are the books that changed my life: “Skinny Bitch”, “You: On a Diet” and “The Power of Your Subconscious Mind”.
I wish you the best and I hope that you’ll reach your goal weight. It can be done!
Good luck!
C.
August 22, 2008 at 2:00 am
By the way, in case you were wondering I’m a 36 year old African-American woman not a 20-something with a turbo-charged metabolism.
August 25, 2008 at 6:02 pm
Thank you Crystal!!!!!