Ok, this I just another reason why exercise is important.  It’s easier to me to create the deficit via both eating less calorie dense food and exercising hard.

I bought a book called “Crack the Fat Code” on Friday and took it back on Saturday because there was no way I was going to follow the plan.  It noted that your body adjusts every 3 days with regard to reserving energy (storing fat) and adjusts every 2 days with regard to conserving energy (slowing down processes like your metabolism so that your body uses energy more efficiently).  There was no way I was going to be able to do the Carbs up, carbs down, low fat, low sugar…whatever…everyday a different thing.  I need a consistent, boring, low sugar, whole food eating plan.

The thing that I think is interesting in all this is that my problem is not food or an eating plan.  It’s discipline.  It’s making a decision and sticking to it.  It’s choosing a healthy lifestyle that will change my life for the better.  Why is it so hard to make this ME honoring decision?  Why is it so hard for me to do the things I really need to do so that I can have the outcome I really really want.

I really feel like the way I look is impeding my social life. I don’t get asked out. I have great friends but my want for a partner dulls my mood sometimes and I don’t want to be out looking at other couples or seeing men who don’t make eye contact. I want to be desired. I want to be attractive in the generally accepted sense, and I don’t think that there is anything wrong with that.

I weighted in at Gold’s and I’m 190.4 as of yesterday. That’s actually about 7 pounds less than I thought so that was good, but I want to get down to at least 140 (I’m 5’5″ by the way). 130 would be ideal with good muscle tone. I’m very impatient about these things and I want to see results. I’m trying to calm myself and realize that 50 pounds will not drop off over night. One of the best things I can do for myself right now is realize that I’ve been addicted to food. For the past 2 weeks I’ve really monitored my eating and realized the the motivation for me to eat often times is mental. I’m not hungry at all. I’m eating for all the wrong reasons. I’ve now committed myself to “mindful” eating…knowing why I’m eating and not eating when I know I’m just trying to medicate myself with food. It’s going to be hard because I’ve been doing this since childhood when I used to sneak and eat fruit or by sweets from the corner store. I learned a lot of this behavior from family members as well. However, I want to be free and I will be free.

I don’t know if anyone else has experienced this, but I’m amazed at how much the motivation to eat comes from the mind and not the tummy.

Let’s be honest. In the 21st century, good-looking women have the world — literally — by the balls. For Very Attractive Women, men are panting puppets, sex is available on demand and money flows from male wallets in a never-ending stream of avarice.

Without lifting a finger, Very Attractive Women enjoy lives that most people can only fantasize about.

For men, the lure of Very Attractive Women is obvious:

But Very Attractive Women have their dark sides as well:

Despite these drawbacks, Very Attractive Women are what most guys are looking for. But since these women are constantly bombarded with male attention, they can afford to be highly selective about the men they date.

I’m on liquids for a while.  Hate if you want.  Tell me about how it’s bad for me if you want.  I don’t care.

I realize I am addicted to food.  I dont’ eat out of hunger, I eat because I’m

lonely

tired

sad

bored

enjoying being out with friends/social settings

mad/upset

I dont’ eat so that my body has fuel and nutrients.  I should eat so that my body is healthy and nourished…but that’s not my motiviation.  I use food like an addict uses drugs, to feel good, feel a high.

Today I’m going all day without getting high.

When it comes to appearances, if we have a positive body-concept, then we need to think about why we don’t feel that it is important that other people see our bodies the way we know our bodies should look like.

You will need a journal to do this since you actually need to write down your lists and such. Just thinking about them isn’t enough.

1. Define Your Body-Concept
   Make a list or draw a picture of what you think your body-concept is.DO NOT clip out photos of models in magazines! They aren’t you. You’re never going to look like them without extensive plastic surgery. Plus, there’s a very good chance that your body-concept is just as (if not more) attractive as that air-brushed model who spends the majority of the day focusing on looking good. One man’s idea of beauty is another man’s idea of ugly.
2. Recognize the Benefits
   Make a list of all the benefits of using your body-concept to create your body-image, doing what it takes to make your body look like your healthy body-concept.Your body is a billboard, proudly displaying the message “I care about myself. I care about my family’s health. I want to be alive and vibrant for as long as possible because I love my kids, my partner, and my relatives and friends. I care about the tax-payers who would have to pay for my disabilities from obesity. I want my partner to have an attractive mate.”

   Your body is an example for others. “I got healthy, and you can too.”

   It’s fun to be attractive, and it feels good when people respond to you because they think you’re attractive.

   When you take time to look good for other people, it helps them feel important and respected. If you just go to your job interview in a pair of sweats, your potential boss is going to assume that you don’t think the she is important enough to dress up for, and she’ll probably decide not to hire you before you even say “Hello.” Likewise, if you go on your first date with Mister/Miss Right without brushing your hair or your teeth, they’re not going to feel like you really care about the date or them, so it would be doubtful that they would call you back.

3. Recognize the Excuses
   Make a list of all the reasons (excuses for) why you don’t invest the effort into changing your body to fit your body-concept.
   • “I don’t want to be one of those vain people who focus on their looks all day.”
   • “I don’t want people to think that I’m shallow because I look too good.”
   • “I don’t want people to flirt with me because I’m married, and I don’t want my husband to think that I’m trying to cheat on him by being flirtatious.”
   • “I want people to focus on me, not my looks.”
   • “I have bigger things to worry about than how I look.
   • “I don’t have enough time to give myself a make-over every day.”
   • “I’m just going to get old and fall apart anyhow, so why bother?”
   • “I’m not going to lose the weight anyhow, so why bother?”
4. Recognize the Contradictions
   Every excuse has a contradiction in itself. For every excuse, write down how your excuse actually defeats itself.
   • Excuse: “I want people to focus on me, not my looks.”
     Contradiction: “People tend to ignore unattractive people, so people wouldn’t focus on me much at all, let alone my looks.”
   • Excuse: “I don’t want people to think that I’m shallow because I look too good.”
     Contradiction: “People are more likely to think that I am in control of my life and know what I want rather than shallow. If I don’t try to look my best, they’ll just think that I have no self-respect nor respect for others since I don’t try to look good for them either.”

Most people don’t deal well with other people telling them that they can’t have something, let alone denying themselves.  To deny yourself, in many cultures and religions, is the path to greater health and increased spiritual perception.  When you have self control regarding what you put in your mouth you can focus on other things.  You can feel yourself with wisdom and spirit.

If society is going to glorify and envy thin, beautiful models and actresses why is it penalizing young women who buy into the beauty status quo.  These young women are obsessed with weight loss like a young hockey player is obsessed with being good.  The problem for both comes in when loosing weight or being the best is the most important thing in their lives.   There is nothing wrong with loosing weight.  Nothing wrong with being thin.  However you have to know the limits and how to stay healthy.

I am all for fasting, radical dieting, etc.  I really think that eating nothing but a raw food diet is the answer for most overweight and weight obsessed people.  It limits what you can eat and eliminates almost all processed food.  I think that people should limit what they eat and eat less.  The only reason that we don’t have massive campaigns to get people to eat better and loose weight is because we have a huge food industry and diet industry that feeds off the fat public.  People make money because I stuff treats, snacks, value meals, and junk into my body.   Then later on the medical industry will make money curing us all of cancer, diabetes, and other diseases that can be linked to our eating patterns.

In the end, whatever works for you and you can manage your health doing…I’m all in favor.  If you are dieting, limiting, fasting…I really don’t care.  I don’t care what other people think.  You can go from 190 to 120 fasting, and if you don’t tell people they will talk about how good you look, how fine you are.  But as soon as you tell them you didn’t eat…they want to put you in treatment.  Do they put their fat friends who are sitting down to a huge value meal day after day in a treatment center?  Do they suggest that they get some help? NO.  Why?  People get offended when you suggest that they need to lose weight.  Well, I’m offended that people feel they know what is best for others in the fight to loose pounds.

You do what works for you.  I’ll do what works for me.  If you don’t want to know…don’t ask.