I haven’t gotten what I want so I’ve settled for…

This is what I realized today…just now.
I haven’t gotten what I want so I’ve settled for…
Food
Sex/Orgasm
Career
Sarcasm
Gossip
Spending Money
Acknowledging my…talent, personality, intelligence
Fantasy
I’ve soothed my want for a man and for a relationship…for companionship with all of these things.  I have to now face my desire head on.